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July: the difficult month

Amanda left on the 8th. It was so hard to see her go. She is my oldest, but she is still my baby and has been for 19 years (and always will be). I get so emotional everytime I see her empty room, hear her favorite song, etc. I miss her so much but I am also so happy for her and proud of her. This is something she wants and I will always support her decision but I will not miss her any less.

I was just getting 'comfortable' with her absence when I got the call that Mike had fallen off a steeple on a roof. He was rushed to the hospital and I paniced because I cannot drive anymore because of the fibro. But a coworker of his picked me up and took me to the hospital. He had almost completely severed his arm but they were able to repair it and he was hospitalized for several days.

I stayed by his side the entire time and eventually he was released and to home we went. It has been so difficult helping him (yet I will never say a word as he nees me) and this also started a long battle of no sleep which started in the hospital. I am lucky if I had an hour last night.

And now the stress is taking its toll as I can hardly move, legs are not working, just the scarecrow thing, and the pain is beyond reason. I have so much I need to do and so much that I want to do and I can do nothing.

At least this month is almost  at its end...